Well my new friends left last night and this makes me sad! The Germans were cool and I didn't even get to speak to the girls from Finland... mostly I'll miss Chris's smile, Daniel bossing me around and Sarah's laugh! We didn't really get to know them too well but they helped me to forget the events of the last month for a short time and I actually felt like my old self for a while. This distraction I know I have God to thank for because I prayed that one would come over the Easter break from school! Now that they are gone I am gonna spring clean my house... by the end of this week it will be worthy of a visit by the Janice... I hope. I've just noticed something about my blogging habits, I am far more likely to blog in my holidays from school. More time is a factor but I think also if I blogged when I was at work it might just be me complaining about that all the time!
I have a wish list at the moment and it includes some things off of the internet shopping network that I would buy if I were rich...
Here goes...
1 Peacock cons off ebay
2 ipod shuffle off apple
3 a list of dvd's and books as long as your arm including Narnia double disc, phantom of the opera, everything CSLewis has ever written etc...! off play
4 if I had the ipod I think I would buy the complete Harry Potter audiobook collection read by Stephen Fry.
I stumbled on a wicked use of a blog yesterday as I was jumping around blogger, an American lady asked for prayer requests saying that she would pray and asking others who found her site to do the same, if you leave a prayer request or not you pray and she got 111 comments in a couple of hours! This means that each of those requests (if her idea worked,ie if people prayed) were prayed for over 100 times! I didn't leave a request but I prayed anyway!
Lots of love
J9

OK! I have just read my amazing husband's blog and thought I should write something! I am sorry that I've been a bit rubbish recently but as anyone who reads this blog will know I always have been!
Some people have said that we are dealing with this really well but the truth is we are dealing with it anyway we can! Ste finds it easier to write and get what he needs to say out that way. I love to write but I can't even attempt it, nothing I can write seems enough!
It probably doesn't help that I just keep saying inappropriate things or sometimes can't even get the right words out... Help!
I have talked to God more over the last few weeks than I ever thought possible, he has spoken to me through friends and family, colleagues at work, reading my bible and the meetings at church. Everywhere I turn God seems to be there and I am safe in the knowledge that our baby is with our Lord in heaven and someday we will meet!
As Ste has said in his blog I had my follow up scan this week and the news was as good as we could hope for. My first reaction was to celebrate and then I felt guilty for feeling so overjoyed.
An incredibly wise person told me this week, and I am sorry that this isn't an exact quote, that if we are feeling that something like this is our fault we are assuming that we could have prevented it and therefore being ignorant of the fact that God has ultimate control. Job 21.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3 v 5 an 6.
Lots of Love and Thanks to all those people who have supported us or offered their help during this time, Janine xxx